Getting back on track ❤️

So dealing with anxiety and/or depression is bloody hard, but dealing with it and it’s affects while trying to get back into work and normal life is super challenging and at times crippling! I’ve just got a job relieving and mentally I’m on top of my game (well as the new me anyway), but physically I’m exhausted and in so much pain! After my second day (of just 6 hours) I couldn’t even walk and suffered for 3 days after with serious knee and back pain. I have also had issues with my sleeping again! I guess unwinding and relaxing the brain! Maybe I need access bar treatment! 

I’ve asked myself why am doing this? Is there anything else I’d be able to do or even be good at? Will I make it through the other side if I persevere enough? Unfortunately I don’t have the answers to these questions right now, but I know deep in my heart that the more I do this the easier it’ll become 😊. 

I went to the doctor and she told me to take it easy and do everything in my own time, which this relieving job is perfect for! If I can’t do it I don’t have to and I can monitor how many days and hours I can do! Because I’m also back marching I have to also monitor this! My doctor was quite concerned about doing too much at once and the fact that my bones are quite weak I have to be aware of fractures! However I know I’ve got this, I can do it and I already feel stronger! Since last Thursday I have worked 5 days and had 2 days off! I feel good at the moment (apart from my knee which has its moments) 🙄. 

So anyway I wanted to share this pretty positive news with you all and let you know that it feels good to be back doing what I love, even though I’m not functioning at my best quite yet 😊. I love the support I get from you all – my amazing family and friends and even though I sometimes get upset and have set backs, you all keep encouraging me and pick me up! So thank you 🙏🏼😍❤️